Changes

I'm definately not so tired as I was the last couple months, but I still feel slightly withdrawn. I am less inclined to go out in the evenings, having a harder time getting motivated at work. I know that many women change in some way when they become mothers, and I've been wondering a lot lately, how will I change? Will I lose the drive and ambition that has always been such a strong part of who I am? Will I gain a new calmness? Will I become a homebody, a nester? I don't know. That change is as hidden from me as the child who will bring it on. I can see the shadow of outlines, but no distinct shape or direction. I can only speculate on what these short glimpses could turn into. And wait.